Last week, I had the opportunity to host a book launch for Randi Zinn. Randi is the founder of Beyond Mom; through events, podcasts, writings and more, Randi has created a community of women who not only look at their identity beyond motherhood, but often establish and embrace a new identity after motherhood. Her new book "Going Beyond Mom: How To Activate Your Mind, Body, and Business After Baby" was released last month, and I was honored when she asked me to host a book launch party for her at Athleta which featured her book reading, MamaFit Workout and healthy snacks by another fellow mompreneur Emma Carrera.
Over the past few months, the theme of accepting where you are when things have changed has been a reoccurring for me. Two days after the event at Athleta, I was training a client; 78 years old, battling cancer. A former actress and dancer, she explained to me that she no longer can audition for lead roles. She and her oncologist call it "chemo brain."
"I literally cannot memorize or remember things the way I used to," she told me. "So now I am auditioning for much smaller roles."
Good news? It keeps her working and provides her with a new challenge. Yet to be accustomed to starring in roles to then accepting smaller roles because your new reality is different; that is a challenge.
Once again, after a brief reprieve from the humidity, although we are in mid-October, neither myself nor any of my fellow marathon runners can seem to get our training runs in without it being either 100% humidity, rainy, or brutally hot. My hip has been feeling a lot better, yet I used this past week to do a "shorter" long run and will face my 20 miler this upcoming weekend (more on that in my next post). On Monday morning, once again drenched almost immediately from the humidity, I went for a12-14 mile run. Around mile 5, I see a blonde 20-something year old, sports bra revealing her almost six pack, essentially fly right past me going in the opposite direction. At first, I appreciated her beauty; her running gait, her athleticism. Then, full disclosure, I had a moment or two of judgment and envy. She looked and had the feel of youth, freedom, health, and determination. She was light as in uninhibited, and appeared to not be weighed down with responsibilities.
Mind you; I have absolutely no idea what is truly going on in her life. But her grace and what looked like a stroll in the park for her which in reality was an outright sprint hit a nerve; I am not sure I ever ran quite the way she did that day. Yet I remembered a time when I felt that free- that light- when I ran.
Whether it be my age, my life priorities, or something entirely different, running no longer feels freeing and, in essence, effortless. I mentioned in my last post that I am getting back my running groove. Yet it feels different. But why should that be a negative?
We all know the phrase "When one door closes another one opens." So what is actually happening now that didn't before when I run? What can I learn from it?
One of the biggest changes I am finding is my overwhelming desire to stop; I have written about this before. I have not fully conquered this desire. Yet what I am finding is, when I stop, I am able to then regroup and carry on. This past week, when I taught my "No Sweat" class at the new NYRR run hub, I spoke with two women who were taking my class. One will be running her first marathon this November.
"I did 21 this past weekend and I felt pretty good," she tells me. "I struggled between mile 16-18 but I knew if I stopped I wouldn't be able to continue."
Strangely, I am finding that when I am stopping, fortunately, I am able to pick it up again. It has happened during most of my long training runs. Maria Berlinski, my partner in Miami with Fit Co on the Go, reminded me of the Galloway method. The idea behind it: run a mile, then walk a minute. The key? You only walk one minute; after a minute your body doesn’t want to go back to running. Just a few weeks shy of the marathon, it does not feel like the right time to entirely change my method. But keeping this in mind may be helpful should I feel like I have to stop.
Another change; running pre-business owner and pre-motherhood was a way for me to zone out. But as a Mompreneur, my sweet running days where I could afford to zone out for an extended period of time are essentially over. Case in point; last Thursday morning, after receiving a 5am wake up call from Sophia, I taught my 6am virtual class, got Sophia ready to school and set out for a run. I got a solid 20 minutes in- a luxury- before what I knew would be the impending texts and calls. The weather was "iffy"; rainy, misty and slippery but not a washout. I had two outdoor classes in two different locations on the schedule, clients signed up for both. In between stopping and running and answering texts I got my 7 miles in; yet runs like this are the new norm and finding a way to be able to quickly zone in and back out while keeping my focus on the run at hand is now a new challenge.
As I continue to run, I have no idea what else I will find behind my door.
I look forward to finding out.